This post is "raw;" I haven't contemplated it for a while or edited it, so there may be typos, or I may not be very coherent. I may reread it tomorrow, next week, next month, next year and be surprised that I couldn't articulate myself better. But I'll do what I can at this moment...
Up until a few hours ago, I was "lucky" when it came to death as I only had to deal with the deaths of my grandparents. Don't get me wrong, they were hard to deal with, but my grandparents were old and had lived a full life and death was expected.
However, this morning someone who once was very close to me passed away very unexpectedly in the middle of life. Unfortunately, several years ago our relationship got severed, and there never was closure. What's more, the person was unfortunately very troubled all his life.
To A: I had hoped from the bottom of my heart that you would find peace on Earth. Unfortunately, it was not meant to be. I truly hope that you have found the peace you were never able to find while being alive...
Life is precious; life may be short. Go hug those you love. Let those who are far away know what they mean to you. You never know when it will be the last chance to do so....
Andrea